So, I've bee not posting much visually, so i thought I'd post an update on what I've been working on. Yes, yet another flash project. But this one s just a dress up doll so it ideally shouldn't take as long as an actual game takes.

I Have Been Watching: Neo Angelic ~Abyss~, 07 Ghost, (both of which are extremely dull I and I only rec watching them for their character designs) Ergo Proxy, Baccano!, and a ton of movies.

JUNE 8TH

It felt like the end of everything (how naive of us)
when the bleached police lights backlit your boy-boned frame.

There were only three of them,
but words strung like singing diamonds
across your lips.

And I wasn't sure if such beauty was born of this stress,
your cloudy green-eyed intensity (only a flicker in the dark), or
backseat ecstasy.

I took them from you, with nothing in return but
the hope that I would return them.

I spent the last week working on an end of the year project that basically acted as a portfolio in addition to a time-based work of art. Said project led to a disagreement with a teacher (who is a dada/historical/postmodern photographer) as to why artists should cater to the general public. We should create solely for other artists, since artists are the ones who determine what art truly is. The media simply reports what happens in the world.

Art is art just because he and the art world say so? Therefore, artwork has just become an extension of their ego - a tangible artifact of social/intellectual worth. Let's just completely forget the ultimate goal of art in the first place: the creation of an effect on the onlooker

This left me, a symbolist/art nouveau/decadence/surrealist artist, to feel the need to jusitfy my work. So I started trying to write what art wasn't, but I felt like I was limiting it too much. So here's is some thoughts on what I know it to be:

--Inspiration
--A cataylst for wisdom
--A window to somewhere else
--A creation made from patience and quality
--A creation independent of the creator and reality
--Something universally understood to be valuable
--An order from chaos
--An emulatation/description of aspects of what it means to be human that is understandable to humans.
--Something that fufills the emotional and spiritual needs of humans, regardless of time period, profession, or education level.



And a few quotes I strongly agree with:

"Man's individuality or singularity is not a barrier to the universality of the will, but is subordinated to it...Everyone recognises himself or his own will in this act... Even those who could not create such a work find their own essence expressed .... Such a work is therefore truly universal. The more its individual creator dissolves in it, the more approval it earns."
(Georg Wilhelm F. Hegel, Sämtliche Werke, Dritter Band, "Philosophische Propädeutik, Gymnasialreden und Gutachten über den Philosophie-Unterricht" 1927


"The artist is a receptacle for the emotions that come from all over the place: from the sky, from the earth, from a scrap of paper, from a passing shape, from a spider's web. ... The purpose of art is washing the dust of daily life off our souls. ... We all know that art is not truth. Art is a lie that makes us realize the truth. ..." (Jackson Pollock)

The next weeks will be insanely busy for me, for personal reasons that if you know me are already aware of. I won't be posting any large projects until after May 15th.

I've been thinking a lot about Pyrexia lately, it's not abandoned. I've been thinking about Red Wall, but unable to finish illustrating since my own work has abducted most of my studio time. Fear not, I sincerely love creating flash games and look forward to experimenting more with them.

My Legend of Zelda Vaati sculpt is base painted and currently I am doing detailing/shading.

I have a Hetalia USxUK, Death Note, and Raito Yagami mixes on the way. Not sure when I'll be posting those.

I am also more excited for Kamen Rider Dragon Knight action figures than I should be~ XD

I have been watching: Axis Powers Hetalia, Jyu-Oh-Sei, 07 Ghost, Elfen Lied, Princess Resurrection

I have been reading: Drawing Blood By: Poppy Z. Brite, Mindbridge By: Joe Haldeman, Illustrated Man By: Ray Bradbury, Measure for Measure By: Shakespeare

Death is equal.

The words just came out.
Tales of Symphonia 2: Knight of Ratatosk Richter/Emil Drabble

Just a short little thing from one my notebooks I write in when I travel with nothing else to do. Richter and Emil have a very complicated relationship, as I have expressed on my fanart of the two.

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[ 38 ] Kamen Rider Dragon Knight


Because boys in leather bodysuits make this girl's Saturday mornings a happy one. Mostly Len icons, with a nice portion of LenxKit and crack.

It seems to me than any written long series that I read has similar content. Am I just selectively living out the same fantasy over and over and over again?

Fox_in_exile's Mikami/Raito Triology
Anything Samurai Champloo By: Laura Bryannan
Nightmare Game By: SisterWicked
In Company of Shadows By: Sonny&Ais
Aceilux By: Wyna Hiros
Illuminating Heaven By: sub-textual
The Administration Series By: Manna
The Human Condition by: jfinn
The Burning Time By: Misora

In additional comparison, manga I find appealing: Kuroshitsuji, Tyrant Who Falls in love, Crimson Spell, Vassalord, Canterella, Loveless, Blood+, Godchild, yami no matsui... In addition I'm obsessed with Animamundi and adored Poppy Z Brite's Exquisite Corpse.

I'm borderlining guro fetish, idolizing the byronic hero, increasingly interested in inversion of the hero story, and attracted to both dominant males yet want men to be subservant to women/some higher power. I am really turning down a satanic-looking literary path.




Also, lately I've been making but not sharing; starting but not finishing; planning but not doing. I'm back up with so much content I'm not sure where to begin. Not to mention I've hit a terrible writer's block so pyrexia and tattoo progress are completely halted. I'm just conjested with so much work to do that I don't have the will power for at the moment. Thank god for drunk duck's auto updater for Queen of Hearts or I would just give up an upload 20 pages at one time, but then not update until six months later.

to zoe: The only thing I can say is that the red wall illustrations are almost done.